i sat outside today.

I sat outside today
Hoping the sun would burn my thoughts away
I soaked it in
Through my skin
Waited for them to leave me
But I can't get you off my mind
No matter which poison I choose
Oh what will I do?
The leaves have changed color
Like we have changed & grown
Soon I'll shed these useless layers
That used to protect me from the world
Maybe then I can break free
Maybe I can fly
Maybe then I'll fly to you
My Lucy in the sky
My story is different
It's been told many times
& each time it changes
In rhythm & rhyme
I miss you so dearly
I can't see you clearly
I wish I could hold you somehow
But all I can think of
Is your arms around her
& that shuts me up for a while.
I pray that you'll soon take me
That you'll leave her & choose me
& we could be happy, I know
It could be forever
It feels like now or never
I promise I won't want to let you go
Again.