the episode.

beginning in my stomach's pit
"make it bleed for me."
& then my fingers start to itch
"do it now. bleed red for me."

& i can try to fight it back
"i refuse to bleed for you."
but then it laughs at what i lack
"you're such a stupid fool."

the insults fly & as they shriek
"you're nothing; worthless, tainted.."
my will power can't help but shrink
"you'll have no sleep 'til i'm contented."

& because of promised agony
"you will give in to end your plight."
i must ignore the other pleas
"i will not hush 'til satisfied."

so i drag the blade across my skin
please just bleed for me..
& i feel it in my throat begin
please just bleed for me?

trying to push back down the knot
please just bleed for me?
alleviate this pressure wrought
please.. just bleed for me.

teardrops rolling down my face
p-please j-just bleed for me?
disappearing time & space
please.. please just bleed f-for me..

& finally i see the red
please still bleed for me
the captors of my mind have fled
a wave of relief drenches me.

& then, just like right after sex
i smoke one, shaking lightly
a cigarette for all that stress
the lit end glowing brightly

i dazedly go back inside
closing the door behind me
leaving it unlocked tonight
perhaps some strength will find me..