freely rhyming.

you say you have no time for me
but time is all i've got, it seems
so stroke the moving clock below you
til you can transfer control to
someone other than the too few
screws that you have let loose into
chaos that obscures my world view
colors that weave in and through
lyrics that can show up blue
or maybe in a lighter roux.
i think that i shall take my cue
from morning birds that chirp and coo
perhaps i'll fly 'way someday too
if i only could undo the glue
holding my feet to the ground through my shoes.
do you think maybe one day i'll find out the truth
that all of us stay here without knowing who
we might be or what we might do?
does there exist a way to accrue
a sensible way of saying adieu
to the world you wish to leave behind you
having never a chance to really debut
the skills that persuaded you to pursue
education and knowledge, until you withdrew
convincing yourself to research other avenues
and then upon your reluctant review
did you seem to find that you wished to undo
all the decisions that helped you construe
who you were despite all of the clues
that you were nothing more than a small ingenue
with no apparent value but for secret rendezvouses?
but all of that was hitherto,
correct? or have i misconstrued?
perhaps the facts have been left askew
or do you know which ones are true?
and could you share this curious news?
would it be a big breakthrough?
might the world appear anew?
or could great tragedy ensue
in all of this silly hullabaloo?
i suppose i should try to revalue
myself so that i can say i outgrew
all the drama with which my life was imbued
but for now i'll just sit and wait while life brews
hoping i don't bite off too much to chew
it's easier now to keep me subdued.

i want to write this poetry
to get it off my chest, you see
it helps to rhyme and be sincere
if anyone will lend an ear
i promise you will end up here
where i will fill you all with cheer
or try, at least, to ease your fears
i think within our atmosphere
it frequently becomes unclear
whether or not one should like to adhere
to policies as they happen to appear
let me just say to you, as my peer
you know i love you truly, dear
but if you think of switching gears
and into a life of criminality veer
i'll take your wheel and try to steer
you back into my biosphere
where you could be my cavalier
forgive me if i interfere
but know that my love is sincere
and my opinions offer mere
support and my motives are clear
and even through the tears
i'll show you that together we're
obliged to try to persevere
in fact, we could be pioneers
and live a life of yesteryear
i'll hope that you won't disappear
and leave me on our new frontier
a foundation of trust only veneered
and underneath it's so austere
will you promise to remain this near?
or will your reputation smear
when you decide to volunteer
to keep me as a souvenir
for all about me that endears
instead the rest just tease and jeer
but don't you worry; through these tears
i will know just how to spear
the evidence that you have reared
unfortunately you're all but sheer
so i will have to domineer
and show you that this mutineer
won't just stand for all your sneers
if i must, i'll be severe
and squash you with a chandelier
if only you would reappear
i'd send you into the stratosphere
because i am only an imagineer
and you'll just be a dead sightseer.

time is such a tick-tock mess
and always causes so much stress
when you can stop your list'ning head
your dreams will stay above your bed
your time will slow itself instead
and maybe you will fill with dread
but perhaps it won't become widespread
you might just have been overfed
like all Americans are bred
to eat themselves into their deathbeds
each life is just a single thread
all connecting overhead
lightly they pull us ahead
thrust into our lives, we sped
into a world full of bloodshed
leaving so much left unsaid
i thought that maybe i should shed
the cloak of lies that i've misled
you with our whole lives spent unwed
despite the love through which we tread
i thought by now you might have fled
or beaten me like a favored drumhead
you know that i am not purebred
not good enough, and too unread
but if you can see past your hot head
perhaps you'll stay at my homestead
perhaps you'll stay within my bed
perhaps then you won't end up dead.

in love there's lots of frightening
at times i hear there can be lightning
'fore i touch your 'lectric feel
i'd like to be sure you are real
before my heart i let you steal
let us reinvent the wheel
asking love to please just heal
the lives we've ruined with so much zeal
what can i do now to appeal
to you to cause you to reveal
everything that you've concealed
in the midst of this ordeal
that you perceive as so unreal
how can i get you to repeal
the promises and swears and deals
you made them as a lying eel
a low-down, cheating, dirty heel
what can i do to get back to ideal
i could run you over with an automobile.

lol that last one made me laugh.

walking in front of cars. (song)

standing at a crossroad, waiting to decide
which way to go, which way to fly
if you knew the answer, would you tell me why
I don't know who to be without you right here by my side


you're the one who always said to stay out of the street
you know you cannot trust all of the people that you meet
I walk in front of cars just to pretend that I am blind
I walk in front of cars because you are no longer mine


(chorus)
walking in front of cars
helps me see straight
the road lies ahead of me
& I don't know which direction to take
should I dodge, or should I wait?
I don't know today.
I don't know today.


standing leads you nowhere, stuck in sinking ground
buried like a treasure, waiting to be found
if I dug you up again, would you make a sound?
if I showed you all of me, oh would you stay around?


I walk in front of cars despite the screaming of the brakes
I walk in front of cars to stop the way that my heart aches


(chorus)
walking in front of cars
helps me see straight
the road lies ahead of me
but I don't know which direction to take
should I dodge, or should I just wait?
I don't know today.
I don't know, today.


I don't know today
I don't know, today.


but ask me, tomorrow
when the sun is shining through, yeah
ask me tomorrow
& maybe I will tell the truth, oh
ask me tomorrow
if I make it through another day
..ask me if I stay.


oh, ask me tomorrow, if I stay.

nicotine. (song)

this is a very rough draft of a very rough song. lol

i'm replacin you with nicotine
cigarettes to keep my mind at ease
since i can't even see you in my sleep
i'm replacin you with nicotine

did you think that i would just forget
everything we've been through since we met?
now i can't seem to find no happiness
& nicotine is all, it seems, that i can get

so i'm replacin you with nicotine
you know you always were just like a drug for me
i've become a cold & hard machine
since i replaced your love with nicotine.

sleep, love.

sleep, love
sleep deep.
enter melatonin wonderland
a candy-coated slumberland
& float above the clouds.


dream, love
dream sweet.
enter chaos onto shifting sands
the dark intrinsic blunders and
the night call you aloud.


breathe, love
breathe deep.
enter life like what you thought you knew
but all you thought is now untrue
your lungs fill with desire.


sing, love
sing sweet
lyrics blend and tone is blue
rhythm tells you what to do
sing to stop the fire.