i am my own weapon.

staring at the razor
on the table by my hands
as the lightning tremors shoot through them
trying so hard to resist
but these weapons of mass destruction surround me.

listening to the vodka
down the hall in the cabinet
as it shatters my eardrums with a piercing call
trying so hard to break me
as these weapons of mass destruction beseech me.

thinking of the aspirin
in the bathroom by the sink
as my head thunders & my eyes start raining
trying hard to understand
as these weapons of mass destruction take over me.

wincing at my thoughts
in the front of my brain
as they sigh & smile in triumph
not trying hard at all
these weapons of mass destruction remove me.