you're not.

i relish living in your memory
breathing slowly
so as not to scare the thought away
can't reach out to touch you
you're not there
you're not here
you're not

play our song on repeat
feeling it within me
take another drink
breathing slowly
so as not to scare your face away
can't reach out to hold you
you're not here
you're not there
you're not

unfulfilled, sitting, dreaming
wishing you could hear my pleading
searching everywhere for everything
i should be finding inwardly
but it's not there
it's not here
it's not

where to look
where to turn
where to go
when to burn
thinking brings anxiety
breathing faster, tenderly
i touch the photo quietly
find a lighter too quickly
& raise them both quite fluidly
watch our smiles go up in flames
watch our happiness fall away
watch our past becoming ash
it blows away within the wind
i feel your memory again
feel it make the tears begin
they fall in silence onto stone
& once again i'm left alone
just memory to keep me whole
because you're not here.
you're not there.
you're not.